Heartless

So yeah I tell myself no one else matters fuck the world I live for only me. That i'll avoid all the assholes and freaks in this world. That i dont care what anyone thinks that i'll stick to myself. And its true say whatever the fuck you want about me i don't give a damn, Now don't get me wrong there are people in my life i love and would give anything to help. But only one person in my life who can rip my hurt in two just by shedding a single tear one person who i can't help but feel the need to protect. No matter how many times she pushes me away i'm always there to help her. I alway try to catch her. But theres only so much i child can do. Believe me if i could i'd buy her everything she'd ever need as long as she was happy. I'd give my last breath if it meant she
d never cry again. So mother, as you cry out your eyes cause you think everythings falling apart you should see my heart shatter when you begin to cry. Ha this makeshift heart of mine. That cares a little to much about others. That always tries to stop them tears. That wishes you could see the beautiful woman i see. That wishes you could see how amazing you are. All these things i could never say accept to strangers and to the reflection of my broke heart in the mirror.

Normal?

Ok so i'll admit it i'm not normal. Well if normal is getting drunk and not remembering what the hell happened or where you are I'll take strange or abnormal any day. So call me wierd or call me a freak but while you get high with all your dumbass friends I'll get somewhere in life. So your all gonna get smashed tonight thats great i'll sit at home with a good book. You drain away the world in booze i'll drain mine away with a book. So sure i'm abnormal, wierd, strange, out there whatever. I'm sixteen and i live in a hick town and i don't drink, smoke, do drugs, hunt, sleep with every guy i know. yeah a total freak. Well go ahead and fuck up year life doing the norm and hate me if you will for not following along. But baby i got something to tell you, you couldn't handle a girl like me b/c unlike those bitches you know i'm real. And i'd break you in two. Haha outcast you say good i like to be left alone. So throw all your labels and bullshit at me cause guess what you can't hurt someone who dosen't care what you think. So you waste you time trying to tear me down and i don't even know your name. Well I laugh at you futile attempts and smile everyday. heres a secret if you take your head out of your ass and quit wasting so much time worrying about people who don't care that you exist maybe you'd make it somewhere. Just live life for yourself ignore all the assholes, bitches, and dicks. Be wierd, be unique, be yourself and be Free. Tell you what baby thats what we were meant to be.

Summer Storms

I asoulutley love thunder storms, the rain pounding on the ceiling, the thunder roaring breaking the silence and the way lightning make the night sky bright as day. i love to stare out my window and watch the rain fall washing all the sadness away. and finally when its over the world is silent. A beautiful silence like, if only for a moment, the world is a peace. Ahh rain yes and thanks to our storm last night the weather today was lovely cool instead of the scorching weather we normally have at this time of year. I hate hate hot weather so todays brezzy cool weather was a releif.
At last Summer is here and i am free for 3 months. yes 3 months of not getting up at 6 30. Yay! actually got out last Thursday but I've been busy this week everybody wants to hang out and we had our state ensamble contest but we didn't do to well. Oh well its done with. Got a doctor appointment tomorrow ugh i hate hospitals oh well. Hope everybody has a great summer i plan to and its off to a good start here.