Friends and love

Friends. yeah right now i feel like i'm using that term lightly today my best friends Kayla totally pissed me off. I may be overreacting but still i'm mad. In English we had to split into groups and make up an advertisement. Well everybody had grouped up except me and kayla. But kayla decides instead of us working together we should join another group. OK i'm an anti-social loner with like 5 friends. Kayla is a people person who wants to be part of the in crowd. And what does kayla do she joins the group with the only person i dont hate in my class. And as if thats not bad enough then she announces i don't have a group and Stacey invites me to join her group. Kayla being my BEST friend knows i'm not fond of the people in this group and she just lets it happen. So now i'm stuck working with Stacey, Jordan, and Ryah. Oh well guess i'll make it through if they ever quit gossiping. And well it doesn't end there next period we were doing our math work and kayla turns around and points out that EVERYONE else is going to skip the problems b/c its to much work. She says this in that stuck up follow the crowd type of voice. Already annoyed i snarled back"Why should i care what EVERYBODY else is doing" it came out meaner than i intended but it was true i dont care if everybody else wants to fail(and they wonder why i'm top of our class) the rest of Algebra kayla completely ignored me like she couldnt be seen with someone who would go against the crowd. Were always the last ones out so on our way out she tried to talk to me but i just ignored her. I feel bad for ignoring her but she pissed me off. She always wants to tell me what everybody else is doing. And i'm just like "do i look like the type of person who gives a damn about what everybody else is doing." I'm not everybody else so please be conformist elsewhere. Ugh i still love her she my best friend but sometimes she just pisses me off.

Love. Oh how happy he makes me. When he's here my whole day is brighter my normal depressing aura fades and i can't help but smile the whole day. It doesn't matter what were doing i'm just happier when he's there. Today we did homework but i was so happy just to be next to him. When he's gone i slip back into my normal depressing self until i find myself thinking of him and i smile hoping that i'll getting to see him again. Hating the days he works. When around him i don't have to worry about faking a smile. And when he kisses me the whole world fades away and the way he looks at me could make any girl melt. He makes me laugh so much its like none of that sadness even exists. Even if only for a moment. Yes i think it true. I believe i've fallen for him. How he takes forever to say goodbye and tells me he loves me a thousand times a day. And how i want to do the same. How i look forward to that moment i'll catch a glimpse of him in the hall. I love the way he runs up greet me and then picks me up and spins me. So yes i think its true no matter how long i try to deny for the pain that may come from this. So i admit it I love him. I Love Him forever and always(I hope)